Half-love
Laura Atkinson

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I wish you could be more than lukewarm about me
I wish you could say that you couldn't live without me
But I wouldn't want you to lie

I used to have high hopes and big dreams
Now all I've got is low goals and thin schemes
I just kinda want to bide my time until I die

I know it's pathetic and I know it's lazy
But one more goodbye and I'm sure I'll go crazy
So I'm afraid I'll just make it easy for myself

I could leave you and tough out the pain
And down the line try for something ideal again
Looking for something true from someone else

But my heart isn't strong enough for such a change
And my little life is too fragile to rearrange
So I'll stay here with you in this half-love

And I'll refuse to be ashamed
Or to suffer someone else's blame
For being smaller than the things I'm afraid of

I'm not proud of accepting defeat like this
But I can't stomach the optimistic bullshit
What does it matter if you're vigilant or blessed?

Life is short and if you do find anything that's true
It's gone in the end, straight up and out the flue
And don't you die more tragic than the rest?

Reaching for the stars is a sure way to fall
I may be a coward but damn it all
I could break free and be even lonelier still

I could be brave and I could be strong
I could search my whole goddamn life long
And never find, or have, anything real

Or I can stay right here
And take whatever I can get from you, my dear
And just kinda bide my time until I die

It's hopeless and it's sad
And deep down inside I know that it's bad
But not so much as another goodbye