带着荣耀和自豪,我只有转头离开
这个世界从来就不是公平的。我满头大汗,用尽心思,扯着嗓子在west quad摆摊,也抵不上别人精心书写的拉票邮件和拉票电话;我声嘶力竭,失声失语,连电话都接不了的时候,也抵不上别人良苦用心的去搞定dream corps的一百多张无头选票;一年来我踏踏实实,用尽我的热情,我的创造力,我的心血,到头来还是抵不上人家用一周时间动动嘴皮子所完成的选票承诺交易。
作为一个不是主席的人,我自认为我已经做到了我所能够做到的最好。作为主席,我相信我会称职,我会出色。可是作为一个竞选人,我却偏偏输在了最关键的拉票上。是我傻,是我糊涂的以为,只要做好工作,群众的眼睛就是雪亮的。
这次参选让我懂得了很多。很多面孔,在我是平凡人的时候,在我是候选人的时候,在我落选的时候,像戏剧脸谱一样滑稽的演绎着。有很多让我觉得感动,更多的,却是让我觉得心寒。人情冷暖,世事沧桑,不过名利二字。看着对手在得意的笑,我感到痛,为自己,也为那些信任我、支持我,却最终被我辜负了的支持者;我也感到失望,对选举规程,对那些先收到谁的邮件就选谁的人,对那些不参加选举、宁由拉票高手获胜的人,对那些明里暗里说的却都是违心话的人。
我让自己失望了,我让我的支持者失望了,我让那些依然幻想着实干就能成功的人失望了。正如我的好友所说:"势力的世界没有实力的氧气"。但是我不承认这是我的失败。我不服。我认为胜者胜之不武。我认为我虽败尤容,因为我是最棒的。虽然输了,输在一个tricky game上面,我却为我自己感到自豪,为我们的DV,为我们的1st place @ springternational。我向世界证明了我的热情和能力。世界没有给我一个机会让我实现我的想法,那么我只好抛弃这个世界,去寻找我的天堂。
我依然是我。我甚至庆幸自己没有进一步的被这个名利至上的世界所侵染。坚守着梦想,带着荣耀和自豪,我转头离开。

2 Comments:
Hi, Tong:
This is Lin Wang. We did projects together before.
Haven't seen you for a while. Just check the Duke email and see your email about president campaign. Very impressed by your nice webpage, your entire life is here. Wow! I know it's hard to accept the unfair of the election. However, the world is never fair. Hopefully, you already over that and enjoy what you are interested in.
Keep in touch! Next time when we meet each other, you should tell me those nice pictures from Tibet and all the wonderful places you have been to. BTW, the DV is so fun.
Best,
Lin
Lin,
Glad to hear from you! Hope that everything is going well with you. I am totally over the election now and trying to focus on my work. Spring semester just ended and hot summer is coming.
Were you coming back to Duke, definitely let me know and we can get-together.
all best,
Tong
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